Things I'll Never Say

It's past 3 am and I have my last Wilhoit final ever in 7 hours. I can already tell this will be the most random and unorganized blog post by me to date.

The worst semester of my life is roughly 7 hours from being over... I am not as happy as I should be. I feel like I may have missed out on something big God was trying to teach me through this big struggle this semester and I was too busy being frustrated at Him to find out what it was. I did learn a lot in class, about myself, and about God though... maybe I did learn what He had in mind and it just is more subtle than usual.

I want to volunteer in a soup kitchen. I tell people my spiritual gift is servanthood, yet I'm practicing selfishness these days. I do nice things for those I know and love... but when was the last time I loved someone that I don't even know? Random fact: Rhea County just opened a homeless shelter last month. hmm...

God gave me the gift of music... when did my music become more important than God?

Most days I still feel like a Freshman. When will I realize that the real world is just one step away?

One of my close friends graduates in 15 hours. I wish I had spent more time with her. She is going to do an internship in Jordan from January to May. I wish I was her.

I just want to travel, serve people and pretend money doesn't exist. Is that too much to ask? I wish I wasn't a year and a half away from qualifying to be a Journeyman.

I still miss him, but yesterday I realized I am finally over it. Now I just miss the friendship. Although, without that friendship I've come to realize how many good guys there are in my life and how I failed to appreciate them all because of one guy.

I have nothing more to say, but I don't think he deserves to be the final topic of my random blog post so I'm racking my brain for what other random thoughts I have that I need to just put out there on the table.

All I can think of is how I am going to wake up in the morning and the rambling unorganized randomness of this blog post is going to bother me... I'll probably delete it. I do think this form of blogging is very freeing though.

I should dedicate my next blog to my Dad. We frustrate each other a lot, but we love each other more. That made me tear up a bit... it's definitely time for bed.

So much for an A.

Things I'll Never Say

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A Christmas Carol

Scrooge the Musical!!! Opens in 2 days at Bryan College in Rudd Auditorium. Oh boy! Things are coming together... slowly. A lot of costumes still aren't finished and some things still need to be smoothed out, but we have one final rehearsal and I know the show is going to be great! Anyone close by should come (not that any of you reading this blog live close by. oh well. I tried). Oh yea, I'm in it. That is why I care about this play. I would much rather be in the audience though. I love watching our school productions!

Today I had a meeting with Jessi Trigger about ideas for post-graduation jobs. She pretty much does what I want to do after I graduate (organizes worship and chapel for the college) so I thought it'd be good to meet with her. It was actually very helpful. She asked me for my top 3 passions.

1. Music
2. Ministry
3. Travel

Her first job idea was to work for OM Arts. Oh wait... I've already looked into that! Actually, it was very reassuring to know that something that I am interested in is what other people think that I would be good at/enjoy. Also, she gave me some contact information and a list of colleges that have similar Spiritual Formation programs and therefore would have similar jobs to hers. Now I feel like the broad scope of where to begin searching has been greatly narrowed down. PTL! She highly suggested two schools. One is in California and the other in Boston. I would gladly like to be involved in either of those locations (ok ok, let's get real. I'd rather be in Boston. GO RED SOX!)

One more week left of school. I should be writing a paper now (shocker!) but during rehearsal I was editing my blog layout (I think I finally found a layout that I like. This one is a keeper!) and so that made me want to write a new blog post. Next week is finals, but I don't have that many to take so that will be nice. Then I will be staying around at school for our Winter Graduation. I have so many friends graduating this semester it is ridiculous! It is crazy and emotional to think that people who entered with me as Freshmen are graduating and moving on with their lives. I thought college would never end... and here it is, drawing to a close. Crazier thought is exactly four years ago I was visiting Bryan for the first time. Now here I am, on the brink of leaving this place for good. Time flies!

A Christmas Carol

Scrooge the Musical

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